Friday, March 29, 2013

Just thoughts...Need to get off my chest.

It has been 11 days since my surgery... and I have had a thousand thoughts.  I can definitely say I am in a bit of mourning for my old eating habits.  I know that is strange to say with my WHOLE new life ahead, but it's true.  And I want above all else for this blog to be honest.  Every time I see a commercial with fast food, an ad in the paper, I think about my old eating habits.  I just wish I could eat a double cheeseburger and fries.  Now granted, I am NOT hungry... at least my body isn't...but, my head-- that's a different story.  I'm sure that other people who have eating disorders can understand.  It is my addiction to food.

I just keep reminding myself that I am going to feel so much better in just a few more pounds.  This VSG is going to be the tool I need to make the life change I HAVE to make.  There are reasons I went to this drastic measure.  #1 I want to feel better.  #2 I want to be able to enjoy life with my family.  I don't want to always worry that I can't keep up or that I'll be the person that holds them back.  #3 I want a change! #4 I want to be able to go into ANY department store and buy a shirt right off the rack!!
There are a million other reasons, but those are just a few.

Another reason for this blog, as I believe I've mentioned, I don't want to drive people crazy with my ramblings about weight loss.  I can tell already that my neice, Christy, does not want to hear it... :)

Today, I am going to buy a digital scale and a blender (for the pureed stage that starts next Friday).

Now, about my weight loss... I started before surgery at 258 pounds, on March 18th I was 241... and today, March 29th I am 230!  That's 28 pounds from my start weight!  I'm glad for that.


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